I have neglected the little ol blog here once again. Seems like anytime I have free to sit and write I am busy doing things like laundry, dishes, blah blah blah. I am really trying to motivate myself to focus more on myself these days though. And not just myself, but time with J.R. and Sofia and family and friends. That is what life is really about. Enjoying time and creating memories so we have been doing a lot of that lately, and you know what....it feels pretty good!
Last week some very dear friends who used to live across the street from us, but have recently moved to Nashville, called me and said "hey what's up? we are coming through town and want to stop for like 20 minutes and visit." I was all like OK! and ready to see them for the short time I could. As soon as they pulled up they jumped out of the car and yelled I had 25 minutes to throw Sofia and myself some decent clothes on and get in the car and drive to Chattanooga with them for the day. I was completely taken aback and speechless because lets just say I'm not a spur of the moment type of gal. I plan and decide and redo and repack and, well, you get the point. And those of you who know me know that I am NOT spontaneous at all. This was wonderful though and I did it and loved it and we had the best time! Best of all was seeing Sofia and her friend Bentley so happy to be going on a roadtrip together. If she's happy then I'm REALLY happy!
Fun things and things that make us happy. That's what I'm going for. I am easy to get down on myself. Not a good enough Mama, wife, friend. You know, right? Don't we all feel that way now and then? And just why do we put such pressure on ourselves??? Like we can never be good enough. And most of the time when I have a bad day and feel like Sofia needs to be given a new Mommy, I get so down on myself it can be hard to get back up.
When I pray and ask God what I need to do to be better the answer becomes pretty clear. Nothing. Yes, I can work on some things but I will never be the perfect wife or mother or friend or sister. It's just something I could strive for forever and never be perfect. I have to tell myself that over and over.
What does make me smile though are moments and days like when my friends showed up and made me get out of my comfort zone. Or when I spend a day doing silly things with Sofia and seeing her happy too.
Days like this :)
Yep, it's hard sometimes but most of the time when I stop and think, I hear God saying, "Come on girl. You are so blessed and I have got this under control. You are doing what you have always wanted to do and you are loved and taken care of. It will be ok. Now go put on a silly wig!!!"
Ok, maybe He didn't tell me to put on a wig, but He did want Sofia to enjoy one!
It is wonderful. Life. We stay busy and feel loved and I need to stop worrying and thinking things always need to be better or perfect. Things are pretty good just the way they are.
Happy Monday and hope you all have a wonderful week! It's FALL Ya'll!!!
